A few years ago, I went into a café to breathe. It was a long day and I felt completely drained. As I ate, a gentleman asked to share the table with me, which I agreed to. A few minutes in, he started to relate his troubles to me. I stopped him and said, “Sir, I came here to breathe. I’m not having a good day and I really can’t take in any more. I’m sorry”. I think he got up and left. For a long time after, I thought of that man and what happened to him. I felt a sense of guilt for not listening to him but on that day, I felt filled and empty at the same time.
Now, the more time I spend discovering myself I realize how important it is to protect my peace. I am becoming more selective about my time, relationships and whatever I give my energy to because I can’t give my energy to everything that happens around me. As many times as I try to, some days I must take some time off to breathe. Inhale. Exhale. Some days it’s a couple of minutes away from my desk or putting my headphones on and disconnecting with everything else. Some days, it’s waking up before everyone else and mediating. Other days, it’s saying to people, “Sorry, I am filled”.
That day in the café, I was filled with disappointment and a full share of problems while empty of positivity, hope and most of all, my peace. Perhaps, that stranger was too. Where ever he is, I do hope he has made peace with himself and all that had happened. For me, I am learning to do the same every day. Don’t let life’s busyness and chaos make you miserable and unhappy. Guard what you consume, or it will soon consume you. When you discover what gives you peace, feed your soul. Do it deliberately and unapologetically!