Twenty months ago I left Guyana with a plan to travel across South America. I did not have a lot of money, I did’t know how it was going to turn out and I certainly did not have all the answers for the questions persons asked. “Well what if it doesn’t work out?”, “How are you going to fund this trip?”, “What about your studies?”, “Are you going mad?”. What I do recall is sitting in my colleague’s office telling him how sad I had become at my desk. I recall a conversation with my friend about feeling stuck and unsure of what to do next. I recall creating a vision board, writing an undated resignation letter and planning my backpack route. While some persons thought it was a brave decision, others thought it was complete lunacy.
In retrospect, it was an equal blend of both bravery and lunacy!
What was I thinking? Well, I thought that if I stayed at my desk, I’d miss the opportunity of ever knowing how it could unfold and if it didn’t work out, I’d return home. In those twenty months, I learned a lot about my self, others and life. I learned to listen to my intuition more. I learned to trust God more and seek Him first. I learned to be more open about my life and I found strength in vulnerability. I found comfort in leaning in and resting my head on your shoulders until I was ready to go again. I learned that while the world can be cruel and harsh there is still so much love and you are my proof!
Being away from my family was difficult; especially during the pandemic but I never felt alone. I had not always worn my smile but I carried your love in my heart and it made everything bearable. You called, sent messages, prayed with and for me, joined me for virtual wine nights, crazy bedroom parties and our stories through the blogs. When the borders closed last March while I was in Colombia, you updated me with information as soon as it was available and always made sure I was safe, healthy and happy.
There is no way I could have done this without you!
I didn’t get to travel across South America as initially planned but my adventures gave me a new perspective and deepened my purpose. As I looked out the window of the plane, I felt joy and peace in knowing that the last twenty months brought me closer to God and you. I do not know what is next and I will continue to surrender my good plans for God’s perfect plans. I have prayed for this day and the Lord answered my prayers. As cliché as it sounds, all’s well that ends well!
Learning, Being, Becoming